Stream of consciousness.....

Week 1 is done.

What can I say about week one?
Other then I'm glad its done.
Exhaustion has seeped into my veins
and in my feet are many pains
Tell me now I can run away
too late
I must stay.

Random thoughts.....

I am so exhausted. My body hurts. My feet hate shoes. I am running on 4 or 5 hours of sleep a night, from 6-5pm. WTF mate. My students are like semi-caged animals. Today I had to throw out my lesson plan and improve for 40 minutes. My voice is gone. I smell. I hate grammar and hate teaching it that much more.

My students M and H come in every day during break to hang out. M is always asking for things to do around my room. From moving books to cleaning boards, she just wants to help. H doesn't know English and he is shy (even though he is over 6 ft), but we are going to work on it. The trouble maker J in my 4th period turned into a leader during one of our after school activities. He helped the class complete their task in record time.

I called my student's parents and had to speak Spanish (you all know that I don't know how to speak Spanish). I don't know what I'm doing. J took my bathroom/hall pass and "accidentally lost it." Until it returns, no one can use the bathroom. Oakland is so ghetto. I don't even have time to go to the bathroom. I have never read the books that I am teaching. I have student's who do not know English. At all. It is the weekend and all I can think about is my class. I am a work-a-holic.

My roommates are amazing. They are my closest friends here. They are the only ones who understand me and what I am going through. My feet smell so bad. I love Yogurtland. My family is my life support. I wake up to chickens clucking every morning. I want to go back to college. I love the Berkeley Marina because it makes me feel like I am on an island in the ocean. I need to learn Spanish. When is this going to get easier?